I might have thighs, but damn it, they're sexy. And I'm actually in pretty decent shape. I'm small and cute, and have good taste--shouldn't it be easy for me to find clothes?
I'm finding it difficult not to ramble, because I'm furious. I'm furious that I woke up this morning feeling beautiful and sexy, but now feel like a cow. I'm furious that I tried on 20 different pairs of shorts in two different department stores and didn't find one thing that came even close to flattering my body. I'm furious that this happened to me, who is far below average size, and therefore it must be happening to the majority of other women as well.
This is the kind of bullshit that makes me want to learn how to sew, so I can make my own fucking clothes. And who the hell decided that size 0-4 with skinny legs and a tiny little butt was normal? That body type is darling, of course, but it's only one body type. And frankly, not a very common one.
I shouldn't feel like shit for not being that body type, and neither should anyone else. I deserve clothes too. I'm sorry for ranting--I'm bitter about this, and being furious is what helps the hurt. So fuck the mall. I'll wear skirts all summer, or learn to make my own shorts. I refuse to put myself through this anymore. I'd like to go to bed feeling the same way about my body as I did waking up.